I am sitting here in the small kitchen of my cottage looking at this model, pondering what compelled me to construct it. I continue to gaze at it and then I begin to contemplate the light as it falls across the varied geometric planes. It is mesmerizing and I am filled with a sense of being centered and at peace.
I have stood outside and drawn the actual house as it stands in reality many times. I am usually swatting flies, battling wind, and seeking shade. Yet it was not until I built his model that I felt I truly began to “know” this house. I now know the true actual shape of each plane because I have held each separate piece in my hand.
Even though perceptually these shapes are always changing depending on the angle of my gaze, there is something about the knowledge of each true shape that allows me to abstract more freely.
There is nothing immediate about my painting process and I am not interested with capturing some fleeting impression. I am more interested in searching for what endures in spite of change. Yet I value direct observation and working from life. I can now sit and observe shadow patterns and explore shape relationships on the model that I could never see before, because they were always obscured by trees and foliage. I could never find a vantage point where I could observe the whole, I was always studying the parts.
If you happen to be on Cape Cod, my model will be at my show opening Saturday, August 1, reception 6-8 at the Cove Gallery, Wellfleet, MA. The show will be up for a couple of weeks so please stop by.
"Being Still" 36 x 36, oil on panel